im in a super lousy mood now. feel so worthless and unappreciated. feel that what i've decided to do is not being blessed for. i duno if i should give up. sometimes i wonder if im the one who has the flaw. used to be sometimes, now i always think about it. the migraine is back, and its much worse than before. things at home and work is not helping it either. im back to be being alone in the office. feel more alone at home. things with him is not going great either. i think its me. its all me. for if it wasnt me, why should all that happen. a few people vented their frustrations on me 3 days in a row, and 3 people apologized, 1 for venting the anger, the other to own up his mistakes, the 3rd, well, apologized for his mistakes but i guessed its not the sincere one, its just for fun. i duno if im easy to be taken advantaged of, or its just that i brush off things easily.

this got me thinking, it's me, aint it? im the problem, rite?

at least i have something to distract me for awhile. planning for the 21st. so my mind's on it all now. let's have some fun, yea?

nah.. its not working :(