i am so disappointed. very disappointed. and disgusted. i can't believe that you actually do those kind of things and still expect me to be that. i can't believe having to know and actually be with you for 17 months,you belong to that disgusting species. even after 17 months, knowing me, you still have the cheek to ask my opinion about it. WTF! dammit, i can't believe it.

maybe it was my fault anyway. no strings attached, ya, serves me right. (Dila, its not a china wife, its worse than that! )

and i shouldn't have done what i did, which was to check on you. biggest mistake, coz curiousity killed the cat. but then again, if another day were to go by, and you would have continued on anyway. i genuinely thought you cared. CARED. guess i was naive.

dammit diyana. no tears. no tears. no tears. no tears. smile no matter what.

i admit i can't control my feelings anymore. i am too disappointed and stunned. i am so numb, all i can do is stone and tears will fall. i have the option to block out this incident but you can't guarantee you will stop doing it coz its embedded in you. and i can forgive but never forget, no matter how hard or desperate i try to, coz seeing your face, replays of the disgusting incident will start. i am building a wall around me, and i do not want you to break it. you have done enough damage. this is the best time for you to leave or stay if you really want to see the bad side of me. i assure you, you will not survive my torture. tears are not signs of weakness, keep that in your mind. sweet talks work no more. so do not bother trying.

no tears diyana. no tears. no tears. no tears. no tears diyana.